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So many things I want to say So many things I can't Constant fear keeps me from Pouring out my heart Would it be worth it? Maybe. Would you care? Maybe not. I sit back and think to myself What am I trying to start? Bottled up emotions Flow through me like a river I can't let them out For fear you'll leave me all alone That nagging stupid voice Telling me to just let it go Get over it, be done with with Just fucking move on. I wish it was that easy I've tried and tried again To stop and get you out of my head ... To not lose you as a friend.

If I disappeared completely Vanished into thin air Would you realize I was gone? Or would you just not care? Would I ever cross your mind If only as a fleeting thought? Or would I just be a fading vision? Memories that rot? I feel so damn invisible Like no one can see me No one glances in my direction I'm not "there"... not really. I talk but no on hears my voice No reaction to the screams Oh, God, I'm screaming so damn loud But no one listens to me Invisible, inaudible I'm so lonely here Nothing but an empty shell I've already disappeared.

Maybe I'm in over my my head Maybe I should just give up Not like I have a chance anyway So many mixed emotions Run through me like Water through a sieve Don't know which way to turn Where to go Reading the things I've written I feel like a dumbass What if it's for nothing? What if I truly am In over my head? Or is it all In my head? I just don't know any more.

Speak what's on my mind But fear keeps me hidden I so want to tell you How I feel But it almost seems like You already know So then DAMMIT Give me some sort of reaction! Don't take my heart And play with it Like its some Sort of toy It's been bruised And shattered Way too many Times before I really, really like you Now I can't even sleep You're constantly running laps Around my mind Forgive that cliche But it's true When you speak to me My heart trembles When I see your face My knees grow weak Damn this distance That's between us But again Maybe this confusion Is good for me Keeps me in line And from Doing s

I barely know you But I feel like We've known each other Forever And you've had A proufound effect On my thoughts lately When I see you I get butterflies Can't think straight Don't really wanna Go through this again But I can't help Falling Falling I feel like I'm falling From a thousand feet In the air Would you be there to catch me? Or would you let me Hit the ground And come crashing down To reality? The funny thing is I can't tell you this To your face Or it would ruin everything... Our friendship... The love I'm already in... Everything would disappear And I think that would Hurt more Than your reject

CHAPTER TWO When Amanda woke up, bright sunlight was pouring through the window of the unfamiliar room she found her self in.  She sat up and winced.  Her whole body was sore, like she'd run a marathon, and her head felt like it was stuffed with cotton.  She glanced groggily around the room to see it was simply decorated with a bed, nightstand, and light.  She felt a pang of pain in her cheek and sat up. "Tom," she said suddenly, remembering what had happened before she blacked out. She jumped off the bed and realized she was wearing some sort of magenta robe.  She cocked her head, wondering where it came from and who changed her clothes,

 CHAPTER ONE She was enjoying the warmth of the sun on her face as she lay reading a book under her favorite tree, when a dark shadow passed overhead.  Glancing up, she froze in terror at the small pink monster that hovered above her.  She could sense the evil in this creature and knew she had to fight it somehow.  She jumped up and began her assault, but to no avail, as the creature was much, much more powerful. Not too far away, he woke up from a dead sleep with the feeling that something was terribly wrong.  He could feel her Ki weakening, and flew north, following what he sensed, until he met a horrible sight: his beloved was being be